D and I have been out on a date already since Isaac was born. We went to Simpson's, and I drank as much as I wanted. And ate a 7 course menu. And loved. Every. Minute.
This week, we're heading down to London to go and stay at Jumeirah Carlton Tower, and eat at Gordon Ramsay's The Restaurant. I have new clothes, kick-ass spank-me shoes and a new bag. I haven't slimmed down for it, and I'm not bothered. We're staying one night and I can't wait.
Next week we've booked a date to go and see Harry Potter 6 when it's out on the 15th at the cinema, and yes we're going to a late night showing. We wonder if we'll be home before 1 a.m.
Last night I did my first concert in a while, as principal cellist. It was hard work but not in ways that you'd expect. And it has left me in the same position as before; seriously wondering if I want to go back to playing full time. I don't think I do. And I think I'm ok with that.
In the freezer I have around 140 fl.oz of expressed boob juice, ready to go for Isaac whenever I am absent for whatever reason. And yes, 140 fl.oz is nearly 4 litres. I've been hoarding since day one, have dipped into supplies already, and have run out of room to store any more milk in the freezer. I can give my kid the best I can, and yet still live a life doing things I like to try and do. And that's freaking awesome.
I've done several mornings, half days and full days of looking after both boys on my own. For a long time I thought I'd never be able to do it, and dreaded the day when I knew I'd have to do it all on my own. I know moms do it all the time, they just get on with it. But I had my own fears. And despite having days when I wasn't sure any of us were going to make it through alive (and yes that includes the boys), I live to wear my Mom-of-Two badge with pride.
I can't believe how much I'm enjoying it. Sure it's early days, I know the shit will indeed hit the fan, there will be times when I will repeatedly pull my hair out, or scream myself hoarse, or be convinced that I am SO not cut out to be a good mom of two, but that's where we're at, and I like it right now.