@cosmicgirlie
Due Date: 04/21/2009
Week: 41+3 days
Month: 10
Trimester: 3
Fetus Age: 39 weeks
Time to Go: 2 days to do it naturally. You know, before eviction papers are served.
Size: I don't think they care anymore.
Time til SCHEDULED induction: 3 days

I'm STILL AROUND!!!! Nyer nyer, bet you thought this whole farce was finally over and I would stop my whining, huh? NOPE!! HAHAHAHAHAAAAAHHAHAH!!!AA!!!!11!!!!

Ok so today did NOT go anything like D and I had speculated. FIrst of all we didn't get to see Consultant Mr. U., we had this lady who was actually very nice. She was fine with not wanting to induce just yet, and was also fine in not recapping the horrendous horror stories which we've heard a million times already.

She tried to push a bit to do a sweep, but respected that I was determined to go completely natural until the (bitter) end. However, of course, she was very pushy to do an internal. I wasn't keen but ok, I can cooperate.

She had the tiniest. Hands. Ever. Which, as some people on twitter have noted, surely this is better than having king-size ham hands, right? Uhmmm, no. See, the smaller the hands, the um, more effort it takes to uh, "reach the destination".

If I didn't waddle before, I sure as hell do now. And you know what? She didn't even buy me dinner.

So anyway!! Everything is the same as last week, there's been no change at all. Oh joy. So she couldn't even do a sweep if I'd allowed it. But needless to say, the final countdown is now on, and I'm officially scheduled for induction on Monday morning, 4th May. I have approx 24 hours in which to go in to established labour, and after that they will "discuss" other "options".

You know how I feel right now? I feel...great. I feel like we've...won, somehow. Sure I haven't gotten the home birth. Sure my Mary Jane is fast becoming public property. But you know what? I've managed to give my body the full chance that I wanted to go into labour BEFORE I know it's officially out of my hands. I accept that if I don't go into labour before Monday then it's out of my hands. I understand that, totally, and I don't have a problem with it either.

I guess it's kind of like a back-handed win. I reached the last of my goals, my targets, and even if it didn't go my way, like I said, I had (and took) every chance possible within safe reason. I wanted to get as far as possible without, without intervention, and that's what I've done.

I know you're all sitting there rolling your eyes and thinking "yeah whatev, dude, you totally lost out". That's fine, think what you like. But in my warped little mind, for the first time in a LONG time, I actually start to feel good about stuff.
5 Responses
  1. I don't think you lost out at all. You went the distance! (and apparently so did Ms. TinyHands.. ouch!)

    I wish you much luck.. I'll be praying for you. Praying that all goes smoothly.

    You can do it!!


  2. Glad you are feeling so good about everything! 3 more days!!!! ;-)


  3. Kelly Says:

    yaaaaay!!! I'm so glad you feel better about things. which means your water will break tonight. LOL
    or not. =)

    But I'm glad you are feeling better.

    xo!!


  4. Samantha Says:

    Yep.... TOO will decide that now that you officially have "evicition papers" drawn up, that he/she will arrive! :)

    I'm excited for you, either way {and am so happy that you are at peace with it all}, and cannot wait to see pictures of the new little one!


  5. Jill Says:

    son was born, and that was after 16 hours of labor. And if you have to be induced, so be it. There is nothing you can do about it. Best to accept your circumstances and do the best you can with what's been given to you.

    I've known several women who successfully went natural after induction. But, you know what, even if you don't...if that's not what your body will allow, even after you've tried everything, it's okay! And it sounds like you're in the right frame of mind. All you can do is all you can do. Good luck!