So go ahead. Let the assvice commence. Go ahead and let rip with your comments.

"ANOTHER ONE?? You must be mad."

"Two under 2? Are you crazy?"

"Spotting loads? Oh it's probably because you're so blatantly not ready to have another one."

"Pregnant again? You'll never cope with it again."

Yep, thanks for your support people, I really appreciate it. But you know what? You wanna comment? Go ahead. You want to commiserate? Go for it. You wanna congratulate? Knock yourself out. You got something to say? Say it.

But I ask one thing.

Please do not text me. Do not email me. You have something to say, then say it here. Bitch behind my back all you like. I know people do it, and that's ok. But don't treat me like a fool. I don't want my phone going crazy with assvice. I don't want my inbox full of apologies/commiserations. I'd prefer it if you left your chosen words here, where I can deal with it in my time. You know? Cos I got a lot on my plate right now, and I'm trying my damndest to be in the right frame of mind to be happy for myself. Instead of wondering whether I should be wallowing in self pity.

This is my baby. Mocha x2. Or Mocha #2. I haven't decided yet. And you know what? I'm going to enjoy my baby. We PLANNED to have 2. We PLANNED to have them close. In fact, we had PLANNED to start trying 3 months before Christmas.

I'm bitter. I'm so very bitter. I'm infuriated by the people who have made these comments, because I feel that people don't often think before they speak. It hurt because people doubted me before they gave me a chance. It hurt because I thought I'd have support from people who said they gave a shit. It hurt more when people found out (and there are very few who know, at least before this post) and I said I think I might actually be having a miscarriage...and it hurt so much when the comments were still the same.

I ask myself these questions - would you say the same thing to a mother of twins? Would you say the same things to someone with fertility issues, had been trying for years and finally gotten lucky twice in a row? Would you say the same thing to yourself if it was what you really wanted?

I've been spotting from 5 weeks. The scan was at 6 weeks. I'm still spotting, sometimes brown, sometimes pink. Never red. Not yet. Mocha II has a healthy heartbeat, and D and I cried with sweet relief when Mme Sonographer said everything was ok. We had asked her to cover the screen until she could see for sure either way.

When I first found out, I thought my announcement to The Internet would be a lovely one, full of fluffy shit, comparative pics of Noah, excitement, , how I found out and how we laughed and other stuff to make you a little nauseous (Nausea! My new bestest friend).

Truthfully? I almost had no intention of blogging again, because I was so fucked off.

But I feel perhaps I should rise to the challenge of people who are less supportive, and in true Brit fashion (ack), flick the old V sign and carry on regardless. So let's begin.

Due Date: 04/21/2009
Week: 8+2 days
Month: 2
Trimester: 1
Fetus Age: 6 weeks
Time to Go: 221 days

Personally, if Noah is anything to go by, I can't wait. Especially when my little 8 month old boy walked across the lounge last week, completely unaided, grinning at me with his 2 teeth.
7 Responses
  1. Jen Says:

    Babe, I'm absolutely thrilled to read your news! I wondered why you'd gone a bit quiet on me... I'm keeping everything crossed this end that all is well with your little mocha # 2.
    Sending all 4 of you loads of love. xxxxxxxx

  2. Jo Says:

    Hi J. Really pleased that things are still ok. I'd hate for you to have a re-run of Paris '07. I know what it's like - you're on edge the whole 9 months until you've had the baby and have counted toes, fingers, heads etc. 2 is loads more fun than 1 but sh1t loads more work - I'm constantly knackered. I think having them close together is better for them - no jealousy, and the little one loves the fact that there's a little person about. R loves H and vice versa. H has a tooth and is crawling (backwards!). I can't believe how the time flies. You take care and let me know how you're doing. We'd love to come and see you. xxxxxxxxx

  3. Jo Says:

    Hi J. I'm SO pleased that things are still ok. I'd hate for you to have a re-run of Paris '07. I know what it's like - you're on edge for the whole 9 months until it's born and you can count fingers, toes, heads etc. I thinks it's better having them closer together and if it's earlier than you planned what the hell - is there a right time? I think with a small age gap there's more for you to do initially but the kids get on better. There's less jealousy and they both love the fact that there's a little person around who they can play with before long. My two play with each other now, and H is only 7 months old. Its bloody ACE!!! Let me know if you're up for a visit - I've still got your big pillow! Love Jo, R. and H. xxxxxxxx

  4. Anonymous Says:

    I am going to have 2 under 2 too Isnt it wonderful Our kids will have a built-in bestfriends.

  5. Thanks folks. Yes I think they WILL be best friends, Noah needs a friend/sibling and yes I DO need that pillow back! Will be in touch soon. ;)

  6. Heather Says:

    I have two at just 2 years apart and its great. Yes tiring and everything, blah, but then so would 2 at any age - now they play together and are best mates.

    Congratulations, bollocks to those that can't keep their big traps shut and just be pleased for you.

    Good luck, have everything crossed for you xx

  7. Victoria Says:

    My younger two are 22 months apart. We've survived! Glad you had a happy ending :)