Why do you bother? No one gives a shit, you know.
Shut up.
Oh come on, seriously. You parade around like you're some kind of big shot but no one cares. They all laugh at you, think you're just a joke.
Please shut up. Stop now.
So what's next? You put some Butterfly Catchers tunes on twitter just cos you played on the tracks, and suddenly you think everyone wants to hear?
But they said -
Who cares what they said? They're just being NICE. You are SHIT.
I just want to play.
Oh for real? Like you can even play? Did you listen to that recording? Did you hear how vile you sounded?
I thought it sounded ok.
Yeah you would, you're so full of yourself.
Why can't you leave me alone?
As if you could cope by yourself? How the hell would you survive? You're so pathetic.
No.
Yes you bloody are, you can't even stop a voice from talking to you in your head.
Yes I can.
No you bloody can't. I've been here for YEARS and still you listen to me, because you're useless. Plain fucking useless.
Leave me alone.
You already ARE alone. You're so alone it's untrue. All those people who you think are your friends? AREN'T. Fact.
Yes they are, they talk to me.
ANYONE can talk to you, you think that makes them your friend? You see how people shit on you and you call them friends? You see how people take advantage of you for years and you still want to call them friends? What kind of loser does that? YOU. Because you ARE a loser.
But they are my friends. They said -
People say all kinds of crap and you already know that. Can't you get over yourself?
I don't think I'm all that.
Yes you bloody do. You spend ages setting up your websites - you think anyone cares? You think anyone is really gonna give a shit what you have to offer?
But people asked me about -
People asked maybe TWICE about stuff. That does not give you the right to think you can impose your views on people.
They don't have to read.
But you want them to, don't you? Because you're such a loser.
No.
Yes you are. You think people would miss you if weren't here?
D would miss me.
No he wouldn't. He'd be so much better off without you. And Noah. And Isaac for that matter. They could all find someone else far better than you.
But I'm their mom. I matter.
No you bloody don't. Look at how you've crapped on D's day today. You managed to sort out 2 cards from the boys and do a cooked breakfast. Yeah, Happy Father's Day, applause to you.
But my back, the pain, it hurts so much and Isaac is poorly -
You have a lame excuse for everything don't you? God you're SO FULL OF IT.
But my back does hurt, it's not my fault Noah had that tantrum, I can't predict how a day will go, I didn't mean to ruin Father's Day.
Ruining things is your skill. You just had to step in and sort Noah out, because you resent him don't you? You can't deal with your frustrations like an adult so you take it out on him.
No I don't. I don't mean to. He's my son, of course I care -
Yeah because you have to. And now you're just crying because you can't face the truth can you? Hurts doesn't it? Truth hurts, doesn't it Jay? Fucking pathetic.
Please leave me alone. I'm just trying to do what's best for him. What's best for all of us. He was being naughty so he had to disciplined. We'd gotten lax with time-outs so we had to re-establish rules.
You know what? You're pretty defensive. Protesting a lot, aren't you? Who are you trying to convince? Me or you?
I'm not trying to convince anyone. Well maybe you...
Oh please. You don't know shit. You're just full of it.
No I know I was right to discipline, I'm sure I was, he was being naughty.
But you couldn't just leave it for tonight, could you? No. You had to put him in time-out leaving an awesomely bitter taste in everyone's mouths, including D. Can't say I blame the guy for going to work, get the hell away from you.
No he really does have work, he's busy.
Yeah. And like your mother spent so much time at church when you were a kid, wasn't to get away from you, she was "busy", right?
Yes, she had a lot of commitments, I mean yeah I missed her but she was busy.
You're so fucking gullible. So naive it's untrue. You should just go. Piss off, no one wants you here, no one cares. Piss off already. Stop thinking you're someone, admit you're no one, and just disappear.
I don't...I'm tired. Please leave me alone now.
You know why you're tired? Because you are WEAK. You can't fight me. You've never been able to fight me. You'll never get me out of your head. I'll be here. Forever. You can't get rid of me. You're so stupid and full of yourself you won't take drugs -
No, I just don't want to go through the hell I went through before -
Bullshit, you can't handle being seen as a failure -
Taking meds for depression isn't failure.
Yes it fucking is, you just can't bare to admit it. And anyway, if it isn't failure, what is it? It's because you're WEAK. And also? I know you're writing this post hoping that you'll get tons of sympathy. I can see through you, you're so fucking transparent.
I just want to get you out of my head. I just want you to leave me alone. I can't coop this up in my head.
Ok you know what? People will leave the sympathy. If you're lucky. And you know what? It will ALL be fake. They'll all be taking pity on you because you're such a fucking loser.
I'm not a loser. Please go away. I'm so tired.
You're tired because you're shit. Just go and quit now. AGAIN. Jesus you can't even fucking quit properly.
I want a break now.
Yeah you quit. Even though you're shit at it. And that's about the only thing you're good at. Failing at quitting. You are just a fucking joke. Fucking loser. Get over yourself.
I...
Yeah. Whatever, just shut the fuck up now.
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